FEATURED:: west.adams

I love thee way the world I live in has become full of potential entrepreneurs! The entire thing is very inspiring and exciting. I've always been a stickler for those who have that niche for design... I admire those who can turn anything into a work of art.

The problem with today is so many people think that fashion is them taking a sweater/shirt/jeans from thee swapmeet & throwing a picture, words, or initials on it. This, to me, seems so outdated and rather bland.

But... to see those who actually make all their clothes: slave in front of a sewing machine. can be seen with thread wrapped around their necks and pins in their mouth. Now that's something to be in awe of. Taking it back to the basics and creating masterpieces!

My girl Steph is definitely one of those types... the true entrepreneur. She creates, lives, and breathes her designs. When you look at her, you see art. So today I just wanted to put a plug out there about her. The talent is crazy... but you'd just have to see for yourself. . .

good garbage clothing

i live in the most powerful place in the universe...my imagination...and i'm bent on giving the world a tour.

-@iamwestadams

I just can't find the time...

it saddens me so :-/

Mother's Day Dedication #1

so as today begins thee month in which Mother's Day lies I will be dedicating a song per day to thee woman that I love thee most! she has been there for me throughout everything and I love my mother so much! so to begin I will start off with my official song from last year's Mother's Day...

Celine Dion - Because You Loved Me

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slow motion

to go along with thee last post. . .

*shout out to all thee crazies that know nothing about this type of approach* smh

LOVE THIS SONG! & it sums me up a lot

hearts were never meant to race

so I'm definitely not an expert on anything and don't consider myself to be. I just comment on things I see and let my opinion be known.  honestly, I don't feel like anyone can be a relationship expert; they're way too complicated and vary tremendously.


I'm not a strong believer in love, especially the way people throw the word around so much now.  I mean I love everyone, but people have been acting as if they're IN love with everyone and that's just ridiculous.  Despite the many times I down talk love, though, I still want to believe that thee real stuff is out there somewhere.  It's probably just waiting on many people to just get it together lol.  Recently, I've experienced an enormous amount of situations in which females have been doing thee worst things to do when involved with someone and trying to keep them around while still trying to keep your own sanity.


When speaking of me in relationships, people tend to claim I have a "nigga mentality" and if that's what they choose to call it then so be it.  I just feel as if I have a Kisa mentality and I know what's best for me and I'm always looking out for number one.  However, it's not on any selfish type anything, but I do not think that you can be happy with anyone else if you're not happy with yourself and you cannot expect someone to express love to you if you don't have it towards yourself already.  I'm not going to base my self devotion on another...that's between me, myself, & I!


I just sit back and observe... why do [select] females think that forcing someone to be with them or to say the words "I Love You" means that the other truly feels that way? Personally, I don't want to be with anyone before we're both ready to be together. I can "talk" to someone for a long time and be satisfied with just that as I do not believe a title is a force field keeping people from doing what they want to do. I cannot even express how many people wondered why me and [him] weren't boyfriend and girlfriend... uhhhh because I'm grown! This is not high school when you meet someone, talk on the phone for a couple weeks, then are with them. Then a month later you're in love. GTFOH! Now that we're on thee level to be we are. I just always like to make sure that everyone involved is ready. Especially because I take betrayal very seriously. 
I've only said I love you to one guy in my dating lifetime [in high sschool *insert eye roll here* lol] and that was because he said it first. Isn't that the most awkward situation? What do you even say to something like that? especially when the other person is waiting for a response. C'mon now! and I'm sick of people I know getting hurt over it because they rushed a dude into saying it or being with them then wonder why he's out doing him. I need time to do me. I gotta get thee "single-ness" out of my system before I settle down, and I would prefer the male do the same. So the process cannot be rushed.


Why do [select] females think that just because you have a baby by him he's going to magically change over night?  You're so upset over things you knew he was doing before.  A baby is not going to automatically change that and make the guy want to be with just you forever now.  Nope; now he's just going to do what he was doing and either love or leave his child.  Your relationship with him is not always affected.  I just wish these women knew their worth and realized that having a child to keep a man is just going about things all the wrong way.


WHY do people air all of their business over facebook and twitter?  Some things are not meant for everyone to know.  and the ones that do this are always the main ones speaking on how "ni99az aint shyt" and telling how much of a dog this man is, but the next day "I love [so&so]"... then wanna get upset with me cuz I don't fux with their significant other anymore. *insert confused face* I mean I could have sworn that was dude that just hit you?  Oh so that's not the one you told me got another girl preggers at the same time as you?  Excuse me for not being so quick to forgive.  BUT if you didn't let the entire world know everything at every moment, maybe you would save this from even happening and won't have to be upset with me [the one looking out for you since you're not].


& please please please CUT OUT THEE CRAZINESS!  waiting around for him to come home, searching around for him, calling nonstop... honestly, when I don't want to be found, I won't be found, and I'm sure it is the same way for that man.  Go out with your friends! Do you. Please yourself if he's not.


We're all far from perfect; we all have strengths and weaknesses; we all struggle.  I just want so much more for my friends and those i associate with.  Mostly because I always want more for myself, and I refuse to let anyone steal any pieces of me or my peace of mind.  I wish you all could see yourself thee way I see you... then maybe you would realize you deserve more than you're allowing yourself to have.  Stop trying to rush everything.  Rushed projects never turn out better than the ones you take your time on, perfect, and mold into something just right.  Something you can hold onto for a long period of time, cherish, and expect to last.

my theme song for uhhh... spring lol

what am ii doing? what am ii doing?!?... 

oh yeah that's right IIM DOING ME!

 iim living life right now mayne 

& that's what iima do till it's over. 

but it's FAR from over! :-P

vivian green::beautiful

new music from Vivan Green...

she looks very pretty in this video. & iim feeling thee song

just a thought

suicide is easy. death is painless. it's living that's really hard to do & takes thee most courage. but mayne overcoming and succeeding, when at a point all hope was lost, is thee best feeling ever... welp back to studying! 

"Lord, open my lips, and my mouth shall declare your praise!"

...[pet peeves]...

Welp I'm sitting here in thee library about to try to study, but I feel like I cannot just yet because I NEEDED to get some thyngs off my chest :- ]

therefore,
                ii hate. . .

• unorganization
• dirty kitchens
• when pple use thee word conversate — thee only time I ever can deal with it is when Tupac said it in "Toss It Up" lol
• when guys take pictures of their waves — ii mean no one cares how far along you are in your murphy's grease process
• guys that try to make everyone feel bad for them & put out a big sob story everyday — not attractive!
• when my nail breaks at thee most inopportune time
• that this random chick really just left her macbook pro sitting here next to me and I can't take it lol
• liars — juss be real!
• Nicki Minaj's raps — LOVE her style [hate pple tryna bite it]. like do you gyrl. & def thynk if she had sumthin to actually say that made sense her rapping would be BAHM cuz thee way she delivers is great. but NOPE; all ignorance
• thee lady that comes over thee intercom in science library every two secs when they're closing — WE GET IT! we know what tyme you close sheeesh
• that [he] likes to get that wakka flokka bullshyt song stukk in my head
• skool and thee pressures that come along with it — man I remember when I used to like this thyng... distant memory now
• farmville!
• that I can't just sit out and tan everyday — life would be great lol
• how everyone thinks they're Gandhi now on fb sending out "words of wisdom" — some just need to GTFOH
• that new lady gaga & beyonce video — COONERY!
  

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so I've been seeing this on a few blogs... hella cayute!made one up myself so heyz hope to see it somewhere someday lol

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"We have to keep reinventing ourselves, almost every minute because the world can change in an instant. And there’s no time for looking back. Sometimes the changes are forced on us. Sometimes they happen by accident and we make the most of them. We have to constantly come up with new ways to fix ourselves. So we change, we adapt. We create new versions of ourselves. We just need to be sure that this one is an improvement over the last."

lyfe. . .

most days ii feel lyke iim just not cut out for this thyng called lyfe... today is one of those days. tonight is one of those nites. 

yet then ii let a lil music into my heart and my soul seems to get a piece of peace. . .

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NEDAwareness Week

This week is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week so I figured that I would mention it so you all could be aware... I feel like it's something everyone should be aware of.  And it hits home with me because I've been there and done that on both ends of the eating disorder spectrum [which I don't think I've ever actually voiced outside my mind until right now].  This is why dieting was never an option to me because I felt like it would turn into an eating disorder all over again.  So this whole diet inspired by Lent is definitely a challenge each day, but I'm working through it :-)

Anywho if you want to learn more about the disorders or about the awareness week you can go to the NEDA website and read up about it.  I encourage everyone to do so.

welp back to studying pour moi... have a great day!

beaucoup d'amour...

get up get out & do sumthin!

I feel as if I have found myself again this year. . .

I have always been one to be extremely involved.  I hate to sit back and complain; I would rather do something to fix anything worth complaining about.  However, in 2005, I lost myself... and have been lost ever since.  I became a person who allowed life to rule me.  Although I have always taken things a bit harder than a "normal" person would, I never allowed it to actually get to me like I have been within these last four-five years.  I refuse to do that any longer.

I have yet to actually find myself completely, but I am finding myself.  And just the fact that I have made a conscious effort to seek this is a huge step towards forward progress.  I am excited for what is to come even though I know the road will be a long, hard journey.

Day 3... 

God my savior,
bring me back to you
and fill my mind with your wisdom.
May I be enriched by my observance of Lent.
Grant this through my Lord Jesus Christ, your Son,
who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit,
one God, for ever and ever.

beaucoup d'amour...

Day 2...

started this morning with a nice run at 5 am & just got back... feeling rejuvenated. there's something about watching thee sun rise as you feel thee wind against your being that just makes thee day seem more bearable

Lord, 

may everything I do 

begin with yur inspiration, 

continue with yur help, 

& reach perfection under yur guidance. 

I ask this thru my Lord Jesus Christ, yur Son, 

who lives & reigns with you & the Holy Spirit, 

one God, for ever&ever.

beaucoup d'amour...

simple beauty

beaucoup d'amour...

and then there was Lent...

Ash Wednesday is here! &welp my father is Catholic and I grew up in that church a teeny bit lol... but I always do Lent. ii thynk it is one of thee best traditions! makes you feel so accomplished and humbles you.  gives a good sense of discipline and self-restraint.  

anywho, this tyme around ii have decided to give up twitter for those 40 days. ii thynk that's really about it. then for thee rest of my commitments ii have decided to establish new habits:: ii am starting this Fat Smash Diet. this is my 1st tyme dieting EVER! for one bcuz ii used to be so small that if ii dieted to lose weight iid look sick lol. then secondly ii don't believe in diets cuz if ii exercise thee way ii want ii lose weight easily.  BUT ii get addicted to shyt way too easily so iim tryna do thee whole diet and workout thyng.  or else iid be letting thee addictive side of me take control which I'm not sposed to be doing *insert eye roll here* lol

so yeh thee diet thyng is being set into place...we'll see how that works out. & ii am doing other thyngs to better my body. you all will prolly just end up seeing those when they're accomplished instead of me just talking about it.  and I've decided to let some thyngs and certain pple go... as well as focusing on my studies more&more.  I've decided to LET GO AND LET GOD! ii won't be afraid of thee future or trying to establish a future with someone.  A few small changes...

Tryna make an even change with my man upstairs this year... cuz ii know ii sure do have a lot of praying to do :-]

Let us pray
 for the grace to keep Lent faithfully.

Lord,  

protect us in the struggle against evil. 

As we begin the discipline of Lent,  

make this season holy by our self-denial. 

Grant this through our Lord, Jesus Christ, your Son, 

who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, 

one God, for ever and ever.

beaucoup d'amour...

joyeuse saint valentin!

contrary to popular opinion, my favorite holiday is valentine's day! ii love LOVE! ii love the colors associated with v-vday, the flowers, the hearts... my favorite shape is a heart so ii mean it's only fitting right? Valentine's Day is just so great... why wouldn't you wanna acknowledge your loved ones? ii lyke to thynk of v-day as a day set aside to celebrate thee connections you have with thee pple you love. those of any aspect of love

welp of course ii would end up talking to a guy who "doesn't believe in v-day and all its hype" *insert eye roll here* just my luck.  so last year was kind of yehhhh ok let's go see friday thee 13th... blah blah blah hehe  & this year ii wasn't even expecting anything. which is kind of disappointing because ii love thee holiday so much. but then ii got a great surprise for thee weekend:: ii was able to celebrate with him all weekend long & he put some thought into our trip.  he knew that ii had never really been to Disneyland [except for grad nite...which didn't really count cuz it was all parties]. so where did we end up?!? THEE HAPPIEST PLACE ON EARTH :-D

he got me a tigger [my fav character ever]...

ii luv'd it!

beaucoup d'amour...

learning to be lonely

8:30 n thee am. at UCR. in thee University Lecture Hall 1500. waiting on my 9:10 n thee am bio class to start. figured I'd type. normally I would be on twitter or facebook or BBM'n someone right now. but all that juss seems so uninteresting to me.  I have nuthin to really say in 140 characters. can't put too much on thee fb status cuz then ery1 reads it & ends up having a prob with sumthin ii say. &there's no one to even talk to on BBM. cuz ii mean who even BBM's me anymore? sonny&dulce&jaynaenay... that's prolly about it lol. & no one ever actually reads this so hey here ii am :-P

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yay for vday!

ii cannot wait to go see this movie this weekend...

beaucoup d'amour...

a piece of me...

as ii sit here watching the new episode of Grey's Anatomy, ii remember to post this draft of a blog entry ii wrote last week. . . 

during grey's there was a scene where ii totally felt lyke ii was seeing myself talking.





& it was crazy because there def was a moment earlier this year when ii found myself saying THIS EXACT SAME THYNG.

 

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...

so it's been kind of a while... & ii always have so much to say. yet everytime ii think to go on here & write, ii end up saying "well self you could really be using this time to study." lol then ii go study instead.  but now ii figured whatevs doesn't hurt to write for a lil...

anywho welp since I've been silent thee greatest thyng ever happened

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in case ii never told you...

I've lived a life of lessons. not regrets... & I'm thankful for everyone I've met. I try to do everything alone because that's how it's been for thee most part, but for those of you who stand by me, hold me up, carry me, or guide me... I just want to say THANK YOU! You are appreciated & I hope one day I can be to someone else what you have been to me!

humblement votre exemplaire...

"if you're a bird. iim a bird"

beaucoup d'amour...

you'll fynd that lyfe is still worthwhile...

if you just SMILE!

love this scene from My Girl 2 of Vada's mom...

ii wanna have old videos of me lyke that lol!

& one of my bess friends used to always sing the song at the end to me whenever ii was feeling down when ii was overly depressed in high skool... those moments ii will never forget

enjoy

beaucoup d'amour...
_kii_

ii miss thee days. . .

oh em gee! ii have thee best tyme when me & my gyrls sleep over together... lyke ii need one of those nites RIGHT NOW!! those are thee greatest, funniest, most intriguing convos hehe. we all pile up in one bed or together on thee floor and couches and just talk about thee most random stuff. it's been lyke this since high school and ii hope we continue to do it until we're all "old and still classy-like" lol

this is a video ii recorded in thee middle of thee am
[along with thee pics frum that same nite]
while we were all still up just talking...

...then these are a few pics from hs then sum early college years...

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FAME! iim gonna live forever!

finally just watched Fame!! that was like my fav tv show when ii was younger and ii wanted to see thee movie so bad, but never got around to it while it was in theatres.  &, despite thee objections frum Sonny to watching it without him lol, ii got it online tonight & just HAD  to watch it. great movie!!

fav quote::

"there are some thyngs success is not… it's not fame. it's not money or power. success is... waking up in thee morning so excited about what you have to do that you literally fly out the door. it's getting to work with pple you love. success is connecting with the world and making pple feel. it’s finding a way to bind together pple who have nuthin in common but a dream. it's falling asleep at nite knowing you did thee best job you could.

success is joy. and freedom. and friendship. 

and success is love."

beaucoup d'amour...
_kii_

sex & thee city

as ii sit here watching my nightly dose of Sex and the City on TBS,

ii immediately realize how much ii cannot wait for this next movie to come out.

ii definitely LOVED the first one and ii expect this one to be just as, if not more, satisfying...

oh & ii support the choice of song for the opening :-]

beaucoup d'amour...
_kii_

no sight is more provocative of awe than is the nite sky

welp it's about that tyme... tyme for me to say good night to today. lol ii juss got up to blog & state that water is lyke one of thee best simple pleasures ever. it's so weird prolly but ii cannot go to sleep w.out a glass of water and a glass of juice next to my bed lol but yep can't... anywho nite nite!

beaucoup d'amour...
_kii_

"my mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; & to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, & some style"

_maya angelou_