oh yeh did ii tell you all

2day's dilemma

today's the 1st day of spring quarter. . .

1st day of classes means now thee tyme to buy new books. sell thee old books. pay mah rent. throw away old insignificant notes & notebooks. file all thee luvly A papers & A quizzes/tests/midterms in thee portfolio iive been keeping since thee 5th grade [ii dunno why. juss have done it ever since]. & organize mah lyfe. . . ii cannot go into thee new quarter w.out organizing my desk & mah folders [its thee darn OCD smh]. so as ii proceed to place my schedule into the bacc cover of mah general binder ii alwayz color in mah classes 1st [thee free printing is def not in color lol] & ii realized DARN II HAVE 5 CLASSES [7 if you count thee discussions&workshops] & ONLY 4 HIGHLIGHTERS!! this was mah dilemma for thee day hehe. but afta much thynkin, sum frustration, no lukk in fynding a green highlighter in office max, and finally deciding to juss leave one class clear, it came to meeh. AHA!! yellow + blue = green!

with that sayd iid lyke to thank my 2nd/3rd grade elem skool teacher Mrs. Ichino for making sure ii understood this concept. w.out such great younger yr training ii wud not have made it thru mah day 2day :-]

. . .thee finished product. . .

so why didnt any1 tell meeh?!?

that Drake was frikkin Aubrey Graham frum degrassi!!

its jimmy!!!

hahaha ii was super shokked to fynd this out 2day especially while ii was bumpin "so far gone" in Envy [oh yeh thaas mah car's name]. anywho yeh ii def didn't kno thaa tho. . . had to hit up mah homeboi devea & double chekk thee info cuz he's always up on his hip hop game & usually updates meeh on myne. but he's talkin bout "ii cuda sworn ii told you" iim lyke "no fool! you juss told meeh to listen to thee mixtape." geeeeeesh! its prolly bess thaa ii didn't kno b4hand tho cuz ii wuda went into thee music with a preconceived notion about him as bein sumwhaa corny. but now ii can actually appreciate thee songs [which ii def have grown to lyke] & be lyke "wowzers thaas jimmy's azz. get em!!" hehe. now ii juss need to see him perform live so ii can rilly link it all 2getha

my mood. . .

sukks azz 2day!!

ugh

je veux. . .

eva stopped & thought about whaa yooh rilly want in lyfe? lyke yur ultimate wants/goals/achievements. . . ii was having a convo wit one of mah bois earlier about it cuz one of his professors asked him to name 6 thyngs & he cud only thynk of 4. so it got meeh to thynkin. & ii mean ii want a lot in lyfe. most of thee tyme ii try not to want thyngs bcuz with that comes disappointment & thee less you want thee more room there is to be pleased with thee actual outcomes. ii juss dont feel thee same way with my wants in mah lyfe. iim rilly pikky bout thaa. & ii feel lyke thee more ii want in lyfe thee harder ii will try to obtain these thyngs & make mah dreams come true.

basically. ii want. . .

to graduate college. attend a top med skool. become a neurosurgeon. make a science discovery. start mah own ngo in thee health related field & become international. ii want to love whaa ii do. save lives. make sum kynd of change. publish a medical journal. be a role model. . . start a family. fynd a lyfetyme partner. meet sum1 who will be with meeh thru it all & take meeh with him thru his all as well. have healthy children. ii want to provide. love. lead. & most of all support. . . travel. see thee world. interact with different pple. . . learn. everythyng & anythyng ii can. know diff languages. ii want to read. watch. listen. & grow. . . own a house. with a window seat, a tree swing, & a wrap around porch. . . ii want to be happy. wake up ery morning & look forward to thee day to come. ii want to work hard to get to a point where ii can play hard. ii want to have 72 hr days & 48 hr nites. ii want to struggle & question myself. juss to make it. in order to appreciate erythyng ii will accomplish. every trial ii will overcome. ii want to retire & travel thee world with my husband for an umpteenth tyme. . . ii want to love. be loved. fail. achieve. expand. . . all while remaining true to myself & my Lord

finals week. & saying farewell to winter quarter

so ii have been MIA from my blog because last week was finals week. & of courseii had PLENTY to do. papers. studyin. quizzes. 24 hr library. lab reports. midterms [why r we having midterms right b4 thee final? ii dunno]. study sessions. office hrs. & finals. . .

lol so all week ii was in the library with my girls frum skool. oh & mah bacc was killin meeh lyke thee entire tyme. it was so ridiculous. right when ii was tryna write my global studies final paper ii started havin bacc spasms. sad tymez smh. so we were in thee library lyke all nite & all morning. & made a video for the whole beginning of thee week hehe. day 1 [pt 1 & pt 2]. day 2. & day 3. . . once day 3 hit we were s0o0o0o0o exhausted hehe. coffee & naps were our bess friends! anywho welp now iim finally free. & mah final grades for winter quarter were two As, a B,& a B+. . . iim actually rilly pissed bout these Bs but thaa juss means ii need do slakk off less next quarter :-P. thaa is all for now ii guezz. . .

ummmz swag any1?

ii fynd mah self bored in thee midst of studying for mah chemistry final thaas on thee upcoming wednesday. so ii take whaa ii lyke to call a "technology break": checc a few emails. do thee facebook thyng [tried to have an open mynd. but now hate thee new look]. answer sum aims. read sum away msgs. . . & a thought comes to mynd

ii dunno why but it juss seems lyke ery1 is tryin too hard nowadays. ery1 wants to be different than ery1 else & they're tryna establish this "swag" to set them apart frum others. in mah opinion, every1's tryin so hard to be different thaa they're all endin up lookin thee dayum same. iive tried to define meeh. but ii tend to get stukk a lot. bcuz at thee bess tymez ii juss dunno who ii am or whaa ii truly want. & ii thynk thaas great! thee beauty of thee search. lyke ii get to discover mah self everyday. mah lykes.dislykes.whaa makes meeh happy.whaa makes meeh laugh.who can put a smile on mah face.mah persona.mah goals n lyfe.mah inspirations. it kynda excites meeh to kno thaa ii can change or ii can remain thee same.

this swag thyng kills meeh tho. every1 has this same demeanor. & every1's statuses or aways juss consist of a dayum lyric from lyke lil wayne or drake. ummmz isn't thaa their swag & not yurs then? & if ery1 is usin these same lyrics how are yooh settin yurself apart frum them? then all these pple r wearin thee same dayum off thee wall clothes [wit thee skinny jeans & flannel shyrts & crazy colors] ii mean geeeesh!! iim still no fan of a guy's jeans being smaller than myne. if yooh look uncomfortable iim pretty sure yooh r so y do yooh have it on? wont catch meeh in anythyng thaas not feelin good. & ii def condone thee pastel colors esp since iive alwayz worn them however ii still feel lyke yooh cud leave thee purple &mustard skinnys up to meeh. its okay guyz we dont have to match thaa much :-P but ii mean if yooh truly love this look & thaas how yooh feel thaa day then do yooh. ii juss cant cosign for thee 1s doin it juss cuz its in. TATS TOO!! erybody wants a dayum tat now. tats&kids thaas all ii hear about & see. "iim gettin tatted 2day" or "iim preggers AGAIN [wit mah 3rd child & iim only 21]" ii cud go on 4eva so iima juss stop & go finish watchin this darn grey's anatomy ii missed bcuz ii was watchin thee longest college bball game eva [dayum 5 overtymez hehe]

yooh opened up mah softer side. . .

as ii was listenin to mah ipod ii came across thee song ii luv'd lyke so much frum christina aguilera's bakk to basics cd. . . & it juss took meeh bacc mayne. ii thynk she's one of thee bess artists. luv her voice!!



ii used to thynk thaa happiness cud only be sumthin thaa happened to sumbody else. erybody believed. erybody but meeh. yeh yeh. & iive been hurt so many tymez b4 thaa mah hope was dyin. so sikk of tryin. erybody cud see. erybody but meeh. yeh yeh. but then yooh came into mah lyfe. yooh opened up mah softer side. & ii can see into yur eyes. & suddenly ii realize. . .

WOWZERS chris brown is def on thee shyt list!

I never even wanted to entertain the Chris Brown & Rihanna incident but, after reading [these documents]which supposedly are the official papers describing what actually occurred between the two of them, I am extremely disgusted! The entire situation is just so sad: on her part as a victim & on his part because he definitely just affected his career in a horrible way with this. RIDICULOUS! Here goes another black man for them to ridicule smh. If he really did ALL of this to her because she was upset about a text message, he needs some extreme help. . . just would have been better for him to have gotten that help before this incident causing a huge media frenzy.

lol ii juss realized ii was writing regularly. . . thaas happens when iim upset or in paper mode

facebook friends?!?

1st off ii thynk its only appropriate for meeh to state how absolutely addicted ii am to facebook. ii don't see it as a bad thyng. ii thynk its good thaa ii lyke to keep in touch with mah friends. thank yooh to facebook for allowing meeh to do so! esp since ii HATE talkin on thee phone. so w.out facebook & aim, ii wud prolly neva talk to any1 ii didnt see eryday or sumthin hehe.

anywho. . . ii feel lyke . . . when yooh request meeh as a friend on facebook & of course ii add yooh bcuz [1] "THAAS MAH DAWG" [2] "hey ii kno yooh! sup (insert name here) :-]" or [3] "yeh ii thynk we've met b4", yooh shud immediately send meeh a comment or sumthin. this does not particularly apply to 1&2 cuz ii prolly talk to yooh a lot regardless or see yooh often. BUT #3 yeh yooh need to send meeh a hi or whaas up. SUMTHIN! thaas juss rude. after ii have been polite enuf to add yooh tho ii don't actually kno yooh too well but kno yooh enuf to be yur fbook friend, yooh cant even say hello. now ii juss have this semi-random person on mah friends list who continuously pops up on mah news feed. ummmmmz yeh not kool! ii mean afta ii realize mah friend request to sum1 has been accepted, ii go say sumthin to em. lyke a hi. or havent seen yooh n a long tyme. geeeesh can ii get a smiley @ least :-P

ii dunno. ii may have to juss start deletin pple afta a lil bit if there's no communication. ii dont want yooh juss lookin at mah pics & facebook stalkin meeh. kynda creepy

WTFlip! die trains die!!

ever since iive moved to riverside there has not been a single nite where thee horn of a train isn't blaring. ummmz it trips meeh out cuz there's def juss as many trains during thee day. . . but NO HORNS! then @ nite when ni99az wanna sleep or chill or sumthin nope nope HOOOONNNKKK! iim so thru with thee dayum horn of thee train. shut thee eff up already GOSH!

*mumbles*stupidazztrainswannawakemeehup&shyt*mumbles*

iim bored to say thee least & ii. . . ii lakk desire

hehe thaa line has juss been in mah mynd this whole tyme iive been in thee library pretendin to study for mah music midterm thaas 2morrow. . . ii dunno why ii alwayz end up havin to take these breaks when iim studyin or doing boring hw but they're def necessary. ii juss can't sit here doing thee same thyng for too long. it kills meeh. it bores meeh. it makes meeh sleepy [which is progressively gettin harder & harder for meeh to avoid at thee tyme]. this is why ii came to thee library [wellz thaa & mah roommates were being way too loud fa meeh to study effectively]. whaas crazy is ii def took an almost 2 hr nap 2day yet iim still tired. all frikkin bad!! but mayne ii juss wanna go to sleep so bad hehe. ii luv sleep!! & ii barely get it so its alwayz juss thee bess when ii actually do. . . BLAH BLAH BLAH. RAMBLE RAMBLE RAMBLE. . . ii kno. ii kno. welp guezz ii shud try to get bacc to thee "studyin"

wheels on heels

so iim roamin & ii come across these heels. . . random. interesting. hott. juss plain ole sikk!

annoyed by thee constant redundance

is it juss meeh or are pple juss wayyy too redundant nowadays?!? lyke guyz esp when they're hittin yooh up. its lyke so many of them neva have anythyng of actual substance to say or anythyng interesting to mention. . . iim juss so tired of a convo continuing lyke:

wassup? oh fa real. whaas good? fa sho fa sho. whaa it do? thaas kool. how have yooh been? so whaa yooh been up to? BLAH BLAH BLAH!!

all of those ?s r thee dayum same pple!! iim juss kynda tired of it all. say sumthin to meeh. wow meeh. . . & pple wonder why ii stikk to mah weakness. ummz prolly cuz [he] is THEE only guy who has ever kept meeh interested everyday since thee tyme we began "talkin". nun of thaa dumb talk. juss straight up & alwayz sum kynd of excitement.

♥ kii