our prez is so flyy

prez obama was courtside at thee wizards [vs] bulls game. ii luv it!!

♥ kii

thee musical is bacc. . . :- ]

& thaa rilly excites meeh. iive loved musicals mah entire lyfe. lol & ery1 else ii kno hated them :-/ so ii was alwayz stukk watchin them alone hehe. oh wellz. . . but ii def enjoyed thee oscar moments in which hugh jackman was tearin it up on stage singin. ii actually didn't even kno he did all of thaa. cuz yooh kno when ii look @ him all ii c is wolverwine [oh em gee & ii cant wait for thaa movie to come out. looks so BAUMB!] anywho this performance was good. but of course iim bias cuz high skool musical was mah ish & beyonce is lyke mah dayum idol hehe

♥ kii

shhhhhhh

for sum reason ii juss have thee hardest tyme writing a paper unless iim in complete silence. ii lyke to be able to hear nuthin but mah thoughts. ii mean thee papers come out "BAUMB" & ii believe its cuz ii have mah certain lil writing space & tyme in which ii can truly commit & juss get lost in thee topic. . .

iim n thee library @ skool right now. . . thee science library. ii go here bcuz no1 ii kno comes here & lyke most of thee blakk pple @ skool go to thee regular library or anutha comp lab or sumthin. so ii can come here to actually study & not be distracted [which ii was @ mah apt but thaas juss bcuz ii def need thee lyke lyfe around meeh to b paused.mute.still]. . . anywho iim here. ii go to thee quiet floor. & iim good. fynd meeh a lil spot by mah lonesome. & chill

but n0o0o0o0o these random azz pple wud have to come over here & juss eff up mah serenity lol. talkin to each other. but worse: whispering extremely bad. geeeeesh right when ii thought ii was bout to b able to begin. iim thrown off. . . ii specificly chose thee quiet floor cuz its thee only one thaa thee library designates as QUIET! no cell phones. no convos. no groups. juss quiet. . .

& its usually kool. not now tho. which sukks a bit. but hey @ least ii get to write a blog outta it huh? hehe

♥ kii

mikey rokks!!

so why do ii def absolutely [heart] this rapper?!? lmao luv thee group [thee music is great.thee beats r sikkkk!] & he's juss so adorable


cool kids!! whooooooo
hehe

♥ kii

my weak week.

--sighz--

sunday. . . ii slept. ii drove. ii slept sum more.

monday. . . ii was woke up. ii was rudely informed. ii cried. ii cried. ii sang at thee top of mah lungs in an empty parking lot in thee 46 degrees rain. panic attack ensued. ii returned.

tuesday. . . ii contemplated. ii debated. ii studied. ii worried. ii was overcome. ii dreamed.

today. wednesday. . . ii cleansed. ii tried. ii fell short. so ii write.

--sigh of relief--

survey says

Does anyone completely understand you?
ii doubt it.

Is it usually easy for someone to make you smile?

nope.

Who was the last person to comment you?

on fbook. . . nae nae.

Have you ever liked someone, then realized you didn't?

yeh.

At the beginning of summer, who were you in a relationship with?

no1. . . ii was very much single :- ]

Was New Year's enjoyable?

only cuz it was so FWAS thaa ii cant 4get it.

When was the last time you talked to your best friend?

yestaday.

Do you have a facebook?

of course.

Ever been kissed under fireworks?

no. . .

Do you believe exes can be friends?

yessir. ii do. tho mah exes have recently been outta pocket & tryna start things back up. but iim still their friend at least.

Where is your biological father right now?\

ii don’t even care. def mad @ him.

Are you a bad influence?

not at all!

Do you hate anyone?

nope.

Can you easily tell if someone is fake?

ii guezz.

Have you ever laid in the same bed with someone you liked?

yeppers :- ]. . . friday was a good day.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

n lyfe: yes. with meeh: no.

If you were in the hospital would your number one come see you?

yeh he def wud.

Is anyone on your top a virgin?

yep yep.

What are you listening to?

meeh pressin these keys.

Do you even try hard at school?

ii work hard.

Will you be in bed in the next 20 minutes?

def n bed as iim doin this.

What was the last beverage you had?

cherry limeade.

Last place you watched a movie and with who?

n theatre with [him]. . . oh & last nite @ breje’s house with her.

What are you planning on doing after this?

study for chem. yes this is meeh procrastinating.

What do you call your number two?
oddly ii call him mah numba 1. hehe.

Do you currently have a hickie?

no. haven’t had one of those in a long tyme. thank yooh weakness!

What was the last alcoholic beverage you consumed?
ummmz absolute.

Did the one person that hurt you most in your life apologize?

nope. he didn’t. but ii forgave him anyway. tho iim super mad @ hime right now [thee sperm donor of course smh].

Who's the last person you hugged?

mah mere.

Ever had your heart broken?

nope.

What are you wearing on your feet?

nuthin.

Do you miss your childhood?

very much so.

It's 4 in the morning, your phone rings, who is it?

either mah son kris. or mah ex titus.

Have you ever kissed someone and hated it?

yes!

Are you wearing something you borrowed from someone?

iim wearin thee spelman sweater ii borrowed frum freeny. but then she gave it to meeh.

Is anyone on your bad side right now?

yep.

How are you feeling at this exact moment?

[empty].

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

nope.

Is there anyone who doesn' t like you?
prolly. but doesn’t bother meeh any.

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?

yes!!

Is there something you should be doing right now?
yeh. studyin for mah chem midterm.

Do you like roller coasters?

not @ all.

Who was the last person you held hands with?

sonny.

Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?

yeh. :- ]

Do you think​ you'll have the same best friends a year from now?

ii kno ii will. mah bestests r lyfetymes!

::since pple alwayz have sumthin to say about it::

welp when ii was a freshman n college, ii was having a discussion with a mentor of myne regarding afrikans [lyke ya kno pple of thee african diaspora] & he sayd sum word & ii had no clue whaa it meant. ii questioned him about it & he spelled it out for meeh & it still didn't ring any bell or look gramatically correct. it was then when he explained to meeh thee power of thee scholar... when one is drenched in knowledge and can identify, exercise, and demonstrate the conventions to which society is succumbed to then one can choose to follow or disregard such conventions appropriately. basically this is why ii tend to spell differently and sumtymez make up mah own words. ii refuse to be limited to these psychological lokks. bcuz ii still say "who made up these rules?"

ii [heart] alex!

I had definitely meant to post this earlier, but I just had to exclaim that I absolutely [heart] "mah bestest n thee whole wide world" alex hendricks... I had no phone for a week because I lost it during a drunken night [not even while I was effed up. but it was lost trying to help others that were overly inebriated] lol. he's great because he let me use his phone & sim card. now I can wait till the new blakkberry comes out to upgrade instead of payin for a replacement phone. GOOD TYMEZ!! mah bestest is thee bizz :-]

apparently iim a security seeker

Once again it's that time of the year people. The time for hearts, red&pink, flowers, candy, bears, balloons... you know all that mushy crap lol. Anywho a lot of people that know me and how much I'm kind of against the whole love thing are always surprised that I LOVE VALENTINE'S DAY! I mean I love hearts [like as a shape]. and pink. and roses. and stuffed animals. hehe all that. Today so many people have been tikkling me. not even just today. like for the past two weeks I swear. It's all been so random. I am so overly amused at how many guys have tried to go out on a date or have expressed interest. Like THEE MOST RANDOM pple ever in life lol. Or old flames or old friends. I don't know I get confused about it all. Then there's those that swear I'm just so into them. HEHEHE I love it & I admire their confidence. but nahhhhhh mah interest definitely only lies one place right now [which is weird.&new.&scary.&luvly all at one time]. def nowhere near being in love though.
oh & with vday come the ads. so I followed a link & it sayd...


Sign: Virgo
You have to feel secure to be in love, and for that to happen, you need a steady, honest partner who has values that are similar to yours and whose feelings are just as deep. If you have to wonder about a partner's roving eye or inability to commit, you will never reach the level of passion that you would with someone who brings you to a more secure place of the mind and heart. You can be critical, but only because you see things not as they are, but in terms of how much better they can be. You are your own harshest critic, and that's when you need a partner with a sense of humor to keep you sane.

It's so awkward to read something & say "hey that's me!" But hey that's me hehe

grammys

so ii didn't actually watch this cuz ii def have other thyngs to do [esp since ii had chemistry homework due @ 11 last nite]. but ii am a faithful reader of YBF.com & ii was very pleased to see thee fits & performances thaa ii had missed.

mah fav... luv these guys!!

they neva disappoint meeh. ii rilly appreciate seein these men dressed so handsomely & their music is great. so tired of most of these rappers. but otha than underground or less recognized artists these four are def in the top of mah favs

lmao @ MIA. glad she didn't have thee baby on stage though. thaa wuda been interesting to say thee least. & ii def luv'd how after T.I.'s performance with justin timberlake he was lyke "adversity builds character. character will take yooh roads money can't. this is my road to redemption"


BEST NEW ARTIST & BEST FEMALE POP VOCAL PERFORMANCE

ii was so excited thaa adele won 2 grammys. ii absolutely love her music. & ii thynk she deserves it so much. her voice is so great.


anywho way too much drama wit thee whole grammy thyng tho [chris brown & rihanna sad tymez]. so won't talk too much bout it. luv'd thee music though :-)

really etta james?!?

That was utterly ridiculous & plain ignorant. With her background and knowing how she speaks [with all the cursing], I wouldn't have invited her to sing at the inauguration ball either. Just a dayum shame though. sad times for her.


& lol @ this video this guy posted. . .

all smilez

iim lyke extremely happy 2day!!







why?!?


ii have no idea [cuz mah wrist still hurts. mah hair def looks lyke a lion's mane. & ii still have no phone] BUT iim overly pleased hehe. & ii juss love sunny days :-D

its lunch tyme & iim starvin. & ii luv thaa iive gotten this new found passion for cooking. ii used to hate to cook! & didn't even need to bcuz mah big sis or big brotha alwayz did [iim thee babii. yooh gotta luv meeh :-P]. now ii juss absolutely love to do it. iive always lyked watching thee food channel [thaa & cnn are mah fav channels ever. oh & thee box but thaas long gone lol memba thaa channel?] anywho ii juss luv tryin new thyngs out & thee satisfaction of making sumthin yurself & presentation is key as mah big brotha alwayz says. ii alwayz make it look pretty even when iim alone & juss about to eat it anyway. mayne but then sittin down enjoyin it with a glass of wine [!!] is def thee bess... welp yeh iive worked mah self up now. so gotta go make lunch

*beaucoup d'amour*

juss can't get a break :-/

iive got the blues. . .

thee ii lost mah phone. looked erywhere. & its nowhere n sight blues.
thee ii hate tmobile & their stupid pseudo insurance coverage blues.
thee ii can't get a new phone cuz ii def don't have $110 to replace it with blues.
thee nothing ever seems to go right blues.
thee dayum ii shuda bet on thee superbowl game so ii cud have sum money blues.
thee why does shyt lyke this have to happen right when iive actually had a good run of happiness blues.
iive got thee effin blues. . .
thee ii have $125 to mah name to last meeh until thee end of march blues.
thee found out when ii called to turn off mah phone thaa ii went over mah minutes blues.
thee ii cant register for spring quarter till this stupid transcript frum el camino [took art n hs] gets to ucr blues.
thee ii can't even call stupid el camino in order to make sure its been sent blues.
iive got thee dayum blues. . .


but now ii can lol cuz iive gotten it out. & iima juss keep it pushin & continue mah hustle
yep yep tho. iive def got thee blues
iive also got so much more tho so ii still :-)