ii [heart] alex!

I had definitely meant to post this earlier, but I just had to exclaim that I absolutely [heart] "mah bestest n thee whole wide world" alex hendricks... I had no phone for a week because I lost it during a drunken night [not even while I was effed up. but it was lost trying to help others that were overly inebriated] lol. he's great because he let me use his phone & sim card. now I can wait till the new blakkberry comes out to upgrade instead of payin for a replacement phone. GOOD TYMEZ!! mah bestest is thee bizz :-]

apparently iim a security seeker

Once again it's that time of the year people. The time for hearts, red&pink, flowers, candy, bears, balloons... you know all that mushy crap lol. Anywho a lot of people that know me and how much I'm kind of against the whole love thing are always surprised that I LOVE VALENTINE'S DAY! I mean I love hearts [like as a shape]. and pink. and roses. and stuffed animals. hehe all that. Today so many people have been tikkling me. not even just today. like for the past two weeks I swear. It's all been so random. I am so overly amused at how many guys have tried to go out on a date or have expressed interest. Like THEE MOST RANDOM pple ever in life lol. Or old flames or old friends. I don't know I get confused about it all. Then there's those that swear I'm just so into them. HEHEHE I love it & I admire their confidence. but nahhhhhh mah interest definitely only lies one place right now [which is weird.&new.&scary.&luvly all at one time]. def nowhere near being in love though.
oh & with vday come the ads. so I followed a link & it sayd...


Sign: Virgo
You have to feel secure to be in love, and for that to happen, you need a steady, honest partner who has values that are similar to yours and whose feelings are just as deep. If you have to wonder about a partner's roving eye or inability to commit, you will never reach the level of passion that you would with someone who brings you to a more secure place of the mind and heart. You can be critical, but only because you see things not as they are, but in terms of how much better they can be. You are your own harshest critic, and that's when you need a partner with a sense of humor to keep you sane.

It's so awkward to read something & say "hey that's me!" But hey that's me hehe

grammys

so ii didn't actually watch this cuz ii def have other thyngs to do [esp since ii had chemistry homework due @ 11 last nite]. but ii am a faithful reader of YBF.com & ii was very pleased to see thee fits & performances thaa ii had missed.

mah fav... luv these guys!!

they neva disappoint meeh. ii rilly appreciate seein these men dressed so handsomely & their music is great. so tired of most of these rappers. but otha than underground or less recognized artists these four are def in the top of mah favs

lmao @ MIA. glad she didn't have thee baby on stage though. thaa wuda been interesting to say thee least. & ii def luv'd how after T.I.'s performance with justin timberlake he was lyke "adversity builds character. character will take yooh roads money can't. this is my road to redemption"


BEST NEW ARTIST & BEST FEMALE POP VOCAL PERFORMANCE

ii was so excited thaa adele won 2 grammys. ii absolutely love her music. & ii thynk she deserves it so much. her voice is so great.


anywho way too much drama wit thee whole grammy thyng tho [chris brown & rihanna sad tymez]. so won't talk too much bout it. luv'd thee music though :-)

really etta james?!?

That was utterly ridiculous & plain ignorant. With her background and knowing how she speaks [with all the cursing], I wouldn't have invited her to sing at the inauguration ball either. Just a dayum shame though. sad times for her.


& lol @ this video this guy posted. . .

all smilez

iim lyke extremely happy 2day!!







why?!?


ii have no idea [cuz mah wrist still hurts. mah hair def looks lyke a lion's mane. & ii still have no phone] BUT iim overly pleased hehe. & ii juss love sunny days :-D

its lunch tyme & iim starvin. & ii luv thaa iive gotten this new found passion for cooking. ii used to hate to cook! & didn't even need to bcuz mah big sis or big brotha alwayz did [iim thee babii. yooh gotta luv meeh :-P]. now ii juss absolutely love to do it. iive always lyked watching thee food channel [thaa & cnn are mah fav channels ever. oh & thee box but thaas long gone lol memba thaa channel?] anywho ii juss luv tryin new thyngs out & thee satisfaction of making sumthin yurself & presentation is key as mah big brotha alwayz says. ii alwayz make it look pretty even when iim alone & juss about to eat it anyway. mayne but then sittin down enjoyin it with a glass of wine [!!] is def thee bess... welp yeh iive worked mah self up now. so gotta go make lunch

*beaucoup d'amour*

juss can't get a break :-/

iive got the blues. . .

thee ii lost mah phone. looked erywhere. & its nowhere n sight blues.
thee ii hate tmobile & their stupid pseudo insurance coverage blues.
thee ii can't get a new phone cuz ii def don't have $110 to replace it with blues.
thee nothing ever seems to go right blues.
thee dayum ii shuda bet on thee superbowl game so ii cud have sum money blues.
thee why does shyt lyke this have to happen right when iive actually had a good run of happiness blues.
iive got thee effin blues. . .
thee ii have $125 to mah name to last meeh until thee end of march blues.
thee found out when ii called to turn off mah phone thaa ii went over mah minutes blues.
thee ii cant register for spring quarter till this stupid transcript frum el camino [took art n hs] gets to ucr blues.
thee ii can't even call stupid el camino in order to make sure its been sent blues.
iive got thee dayum blues. . .


but now ii can lol cuz iive gotten it out. & iima juss keep it pushin & continue mah hustle
yep yep tho. iive def got thee blues
iive also got so much more tho so ii still :-)

incomplete

ii hate this feeling. this feeling of lakking something. can't stand it!!

whaas worse is thaa its a material possession. ii luv it how ii neva long for material thyngs too much. juss cuz ii have priorities & a lot of those aren't on thee list. but this one thyng. ii feel lyke [n jb's voice hehe]. . . thaa it's sumthin ii can't live w.out. ii mean iive been livin w.out it for a while now. but geeeesh. so ii come across mah blog right & ii read whaa ii have written to describe me. then ii read thee same ish on facebook & realize dayum its lyke lyin!! cuz ii def haven't had a digital camera n whaa seems lyke 4eva now.

sukks lyke a lot! yooh don't even kno. lyke thynkin about it almost brings meeh to tears which is rilly weird. iive alwayz had cameras. ALWAYZ! they were alwayz given to meeh too. @ one point ii def had three different kynd. ii remember one broke @ bruin bash cuz thee stupid whyte pple decided they were gonna try & squish us when TI was performin lyke this was them kynd of concerts smh. all bad. then ii bought mah own for thee 1st tyme ever cuz ii realized how much ii luv'd digi cams & wanted a rilly bomb one. thaa was mah last one :-( & it got stolen [stupid dumb azz pple thaa cant get their own shyt. ii still wanna fade ova thaa shyt. ii mean ii can even actually respect sumbody if they stole it straight from meeh cuz then @ least yur bold. ill give yooh thaa. but mayne if yooh pikkin up shyt while iim n a dayum jumper then theres a prob] anywho haven't had one since. been lost since. cuz ii mean despite whaa many pple lyke to thynk [& even tell meeh when ii let them kno]. kisa is straight up poor. smh & it alwayz comes down to eitha iima buy thee cam ii want... or iima have money to eat for thee month or sumthin. sad tymez. but reality is whaa ii gotta deal with. ii mean ii def wud juss not eat lol if ii wasn't lyke on thee verge of diabetes.


:-/ ii juss feel incomplete :-/
but whaa eva. whaa can ya do

luvly moments

ii alwayz juss have these urges. lyke out of nowhere. all of a sudden. to juss write. to let it out. get sumthin off mah chest. take note of sumthin. or juss remember a quote or a moment. ii love to capture moments for sum reason. ii swear if ii eva got amnesia or alzheimers iid b set cuz ii document erythyng. ii have lyke 3 journals [one of which ii keep in mah purse @ all tymez]. kynda excessive huh? whaa evs. its juss meeh.

anywho! this blogging thyng is great :-) cuz ii luv to ramble. & its easier to do it typin. much quikker way to get it out lol. ii juss have to rememba to do it. it'll prolly become a second nature thyng soon tho. cuz ii def have much to say. which is weird cuz iim not a big talker at all. hmmmz guezz thaas why ii write so much. bottlin thyngs in is "mad whakk yo" [hehe looza says thaa & it makes meeh chukkle]. iim actually a rilly good writer too. tho many wudnt believe it since ii spell wrong allllll thee tyme. but heyz @ least if yooh sound it out it sounds exactly how thee word is sayd huh? yep yep! ii kno :-P

this is meeh rambling by thee way. . .

def takin a "meeh nite" [hehe almost lyke pringle's "meeh day" he was tellin meeh about]. gotta take a break frum studyin. & juss chill sumtymez. iim a strong believer in relaxation. hmmmz for example, ii study a lot now right. lyke A LOT! cuz ii rilly wanna learn. lyke as much as ii possibly can at this point. anywho ii had a chem midterm earlier today & ii saw how many pple were lyke stressin tryna cram stuff in or juss review right b4 thee class started. not meeh. CCC as alwayz right b4 a test. cool calm & collected as mah mere wud say. went & bought mah lil 23 cent scantron. pikked meeh up a chili cheese dog. & juss chilled out wit mah shades on fa a min until class started. ya gotta juss calm yurself @ tymez. thee whole stressin out doesn't cut it for meeh. go in confident & relaxed & it all comes together when needed.

iim def writing a lot & need to stop lol. but iim sure anutha post tonight may show up ;-)



iim luvin this moment. . .
thee satisfaction of accomplishment.
chillaxin @ thee crib. wit no worries. no stresses.
juss meeh. here. right now. lyin down. n silence.
enjoyin thee company of mah computer hehe
sweet melodies surround meeh. constant vibrations to thee ear.
lyfe. . .
ii live it with no regrets. & no fear of its end.
better thaa way. nuthin but calm relaxation.

cette belle ame. l'adore!!

ii concur

Virgo is symbolized by the Virgin. You're flexible, yet practical. You get a kick out of organization and anything that puts your analytical mind to use. Watch out for perfectionism! Virgos feel and operate best in a position in which they can help others.

harpo

its about thaa tyme again when all thee gyrlz r separated. esp now thaa iive moved out of carson too. & ii cannot go a day w.out talkin to them. & our chat yestaday took meeh bacc to thee fun tymez from october. . .

sooo thee squad went to atlanta for spelman/morehouse homecoming [08] and stayed with freeny. we didn't sleep lyke alllllll weekend. we were all def n thee king snuggled 2getha [her bed is huge. it fits us all :-)] & was tryna take an hour nap b4 thee club & free juss wud NOT STOP singing!! made up her own lil harpo song. so ii def had to record a lil tidbit of it lol

LUV MAH GYRLZ!