get up get out & do sumthin!

I feel as if I have found myself again this year. . .

I have always been one to be extremely involved.  I hate to sit back and complain; I would rather do something to fix anything worth complaining about.  However, in 2005, I lost myself... and have been lost ever since.  I became a person who allowed life to rule me.  Although I have always taken things a bit harder than a "normal" person would, I never allowed it to actually get to me like I have been within these last four-five years.  I refuse to do that any longer.

I have yet to actually find myself completely, but I am finding myself.  And just the fact that I have made a conscious effort to seek this is a huge step towards forward progress.  I am excited for what is to come even though I know the road will be a long, hard journey.

Day 3... 

God my savior,
bring me back to you
and fill my mind with your wisdom.
May I be enriched by my observance of Lent.
Grant this through my Lord Jesus Christ, your Son,
who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit,
one God, for ever and ever.

beaucoup d'amour...

Day 2...

started this morning with a nice run at 5 am & just got back... feeling rejuvenated. there's something about watching thee sun rise as you feel thee wind against your being that just makes thee day seem more bearable

Lord, 

may everything I do 

begin with yur inspiration, 

continue with yur help, 

& reach perfection under yur guidance. 

I ask this thru my Lord Jesus Christ, yur Son, 

who lives & reigns with you & the Holy Spirit, 

one God, for ever&ever.

beaucoup d'amour...

and then there was Lent...

Ash Wednesday is here! &welp my father is Catholic and I grew up in that church a teeny bit lol... but I always do Lent. ii thynk it is one of thee best traditions! makes you feel so accomplished and humbles you.  gives a good sense of discipline and self-restraint.  

anywho, this tyme around ii have decided to give up twitter for those 40 days. ii thynk that's really about it. then for thee rest of my commitments ii have decided to establish new habits:: ii am starting this Fat Smash Diet. this is my 1st tyme dieting EVER! for one bcuz ii used to be so small that if ii dieted to lose weight iid look sick lol. then secondly ii don't believe in diets cuz if ii exercise thee way ii want ii lose weight easily.  BUT ii get addicted to shyt way too easily so iim tryna do thee whole diet and workout thyng.  or else iid be letting thee addictive side of me take control which I'm not sposed to be doing *insert eye roll here* lol

so yeh thee diet thyng is being set into place...we'll see how that works out. & ii am doing other thyngs to better my body. you all will prolly just end up seeing those when they're accomplished instead of me just talking about it.  and I've decided to let some thyngs and certain pple go... as well as focusing on my studies more&more.  I've decided to LET GO AND LET GOD! ii won't be afraid of thee future or trying to establish a future with someone.  A few small changes...

Tryna make an even change with my man upstairs this year... cuz ii know ii sure do have a lot of praying to do :-]

Let us pray
 for the grace to keep Lent faithfully.

Lord,  

protect us in the struggle against evil. 

As we begin the discipline of Lent,  

make this season holy by our self-denial. 

Grant this through our Lord, Jesus Christ, your Son, 

who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, 

one God, for ever and ever.

beaucoup d'amour...